Thursday, April 07, 2005 @Thursday, April 07, 2005
Well.....life hasn't been gr8 nor has it been that fun.....everything that i do seems to juz exhaust me.....nothing seems to make me smile not unless i fake it....n its not that good a feeling....i still can't use the com in my house n i'm juz really down.....not much to say i guess....close to every single day had been bad n nothing good has come out of it all.....even choir seems to be stressing me out now and then.....I guess its usually coz of the ppl whom have hurt me in so many ways but yet i have to see them.....n sometimes even have to talk to them.....I juz realised that there is not a day when i don't get a lecture from my family members....juz makes me more suicidal...i guess its where my life is leading to right now........juz having suicidal thoughts.....i mean....saying this kinda thing is not coz i wanna seek attention but i know that its not something that i wanna do......but its something that ppl in my life are driving me to without them even realising it.....i guess they juz don't realise what they're doing.....The weather seems to be projeting the way i feel today...n most of the days....its not something good.....but i guess that its something that i have to live with.....sometimes things juz have to be hard for you to get stronger.....Well i thing i've got to go.....i'm using the school com....Byez....take care....Adios...CIAO