Saturday, May 26, 2007 @Saturday, May 26, 2007
Things are never as they seem. One minute, it may all seem great, and the next its falling apart. But that doesn't seem to be the case for the time being. How long will all this last? I hope that this love will remain strong as long as the two of us are alive.
God!! That all sounds so....Not me. Hahaz...Anywayz...I went to watch MACBETH! The actors were cute...In particular, the actors that played Malcolm, Donaldbain and Fleance. Soooo CUTE! But whatever...Hahaz...I've got some other darling already. And he's better looking! Hahaz. Most probably nicer too! My love is a good-looking, kind and sweet! Hahaz...I miss him :( Lets hope I get to travel after my O's then I'll go live with him and his mum for like a while. Hahaz...I know...It sounds crazy...But of course it won't be for the entire duration of the trip. Hahaz...Just like a day or two. Then I'll go back to the hotel. But thats all if my Mummy allows me to go. My darling was supposed to call me but he didn't :( I called him the last time...So now its his turn coz he doesn't want me to waste my money. Hahaz...Anywayz...I'm exhausted! Hahaz...Watching Macbeth was tiring!
Hahaz..I'll most probably put up some pics of me n the students in my lit class soon....Hahaz...
Monday, May 07, 2007 @Monday, May 07, 2007
So I've been up since 3 doing my Art work. I'm done with my work and I've got about an hour or so to waste...Maybe slightly more. Head kinda hurts right now. Don't know why. But I had my 6 hours of sleep! Yay! Coz I know the last time I tried to stay up the whole night to actually do my art work, I never woke up the following morning. Hahaz...So this time I decided to be a lil bit smarter and sleep for my normal hours and try and accomplish what I was meant to accomplish over the weekend. Hahaz...Freda is smart!But Freda doesn't have a brain. Her brain ran away from her a long long long long time ago and decided never to return. So how is Freda smart? She just is. Or maybe she isn't. Maybe everyone just thinks that she is and inside she's struggling to meet their expectations. Which is so stupid right? Shouldn't Freda just work because she knows what she wants to acheive and accomplish in her useless life? Freda doesn't know what is going on in her life now. She just wants someone to kill her. Does anyone wanna kill Freda?
Tuesday, May 01, 2007 @Tuesday, May 01, 2007
So lifes been...life. Nothing good that last for long. All things bad that never seems to go away. Yes people, the Freda that you all have come to know as the girl with all the sad and heart broken entries is back. But this time I haven't gotten my heart broken. I was just thinking a lil bit too much. And of course...The confusion is yet to end. So here's something I wrote about a week or two ago.
You were once such a great source of insparation in my life. A joy to have around. The things that happen so quickly, are always the first to end. The love I once shared with you, I thought would never end. The one who made my tears go dry, was the one who inspired me the most. I thought the heavens could not see, the lies I told myself. The stars have revealed to the world, the lies I swore by day and night. But now the heavens, have finally spoken of what I once thought was love, has lost all its meaning. I love the thought of loving you, but I can no longere lie to my heart. She knows that what I feel's a lie.For what I feel, is but a fragment of my imagination.
The world my heart has come to believe to be true, has not been shown that it is but a lie. This world has crumbled all around. The dust is settling on the ground. An image of the dreams I've had. All the nightmares have come true. Nothing seems to be what it was. Am I who I believe I am? Or am I , once again, just part of the lie thats been chanted like a spell around my soul?
They say, that ignorance is bliss. But wouldn't I be hurting those I care for, if the love I thought I had turned out to be a lie? Maybe a bliss for one's self, but what about those whom we claim to love?