Wednesday, October 26, 2005 @Wednesday, October 26, 2005
You know, I juz realised that I don't write about the usual things that people usually write in their blogs....Usually they talk about thier days and not their outlook towards life itself....I guess talking about my daily life and what I do everyday is a waste of time for me because I already keep a personal diary....So maybe this blog is just for me to go on ranting and raving about how sucky life is for me or how much I think life sucks in general....There isn't really much to say.....I guess everyone goes through the same things in different stages of their lives.....And I guess I just choose to voice them out via this blog....Love, dreams, hate, hope, heartaches, heartbreaks......I guess its what everyone goes though but I seem to choose to go on and on about all of them.....Love: I'm still a "child" so I wouldn't know much about love....except that somethings are just not meant to be...Like me and....someone....And now things cannot possibly work out for me and another someone coz the first someone is still stuck in my head and heart.....Who knows why its so difficult to just to let it go and let him live his life without me there to bother him or why its so difficult for me to forget him and move on......Dreams: I know a little something about dreams.....Considering that mine are currently almost non-existent....Some people will try to keep you from your dreams.....Some will try to lead you in another path....But sometimes you just have to toughen up and follow your dreams and keep everyone else out of your mind....Don't listen to others especially when what you want is really what you should be doing since the path has already been paved right in front of you....Don't make the same mistakes that I have made....Don't give up on your dreams......Hate: Hate is something that everyone has....You either hate soemone or someone hates you.....There is never anyone who dislikes you even if you think so....I've had my fair share of hating people....Its all just part of life....You can't always avoid hate no matter how hard you try.....Hope: Hope is something everyone should have.....Because is you give up hope you might as well just give up on living....Hope helps you to persevere thorugh a lot of rough times....I don't really have much to say about hope considering that I've given up hope on a lot of things.....Heartaches and heartbreaks: GET OVER THEM QUICK.....It'll hurt too much if you just carry it all around....Well, I've got to get going....Adios....Ciao....Byez
Wednesday, October 19, 2005 @Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Well, I haven't updated in a long while....Its not like anyone reads my blog anyways right??So.....Life basically isn't that bad right now....But its not that good eiter....With my bill running up high....N exams which are thankfully finally over, what else is there left to do???Ponder over all my mistakes in life??It seems like everytime I start blogging, there is never nothing good to write because all that fills my mind is the negative things in life....Always being alone to face the world has got me thinking that way....
You see....Its always me against the world...No one's ever really there to help me...N no one cares....So why do I continue helping others who turn their backs on me once their problems are solved? I guess its because helping them makes me feel good...Or is it because i'm juz that dumb and never learn my lesson....And the illusion that fills my mind is that they will be there when I need someone to help carry my burdens the way I was for them....But they never seem to stick around...And when there really is on one arnd, I get hit the hardest because I'm the at my most vulnerable stage....But I've lived through harder hits in life n I survived.....
I guess for this past year my life has been one huge roller coaster ride....With great highs n even lower lows....Heartaches n heartbreaks are the worst for this yr n I suspect that it can only get worse....
Guess I better get going....