Sunday, May 31, 2009 @Sunday, May 31, 2009
I haven't felt this way in a long time.
The hopelessness that sinks deep within
Pain sears right through my very soul
The deep slumber awaits.
Running away
I never thought I'd do it
I never thought that I'd be strong enough
In fact, I know that I'm not strong enough
I can't just leave
I've never been able to do so
I'll try my best to stay away
Hopefully life will deal you a better hand
One which doesn't include me
I promise that things will get better for you
You don't have to worry about me
I'll make sure of it
You don't even have to think about me
I'll let you live your life the way you were meant to.
Thursday, May 28, 2009 @Thursday, May 28, 2009
What happens when you can't stay around anymore?
I don't know how to be around you and still be the happy person I am.
You remind me too much of him for my heart not to ache.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009 @Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
But I'm still in love with who I wish you were.
I don't know what else to say to you. I want to be your friend, but I don't want to be where I'm not needed. I'm the crazy type of person which requires people to talk to me a lot. I hate silences especially with people I've just met.
You keep telling me that its nothing to worry about. I just can't believe you.
You remind me so much of someone else its painful being around you. And yet here I am trying to be a friend when apparently you've enough people around you to force things out of you, enough friends that surround you. I'm just so over being used the way so many people have.
If you're just going to use me, then just don't talk to me please. I don't think I want to get hurt, not anymore. I just want to stop all this drama and go back to living my life the way I wanted to. Not the way I have to.
I'm never going to ask you something that you don't want to answer, I'm never going to force things out of you because you deserve your privacy and I believe that if you really wanted to tell me anything, you would.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how to be your friend. You're just too caught up in your lives with your other friends. You don't need anymore. You can't deal with it.
Whatever!
Sunday, May 24, 2009 @Sunday, May 24, 2009
Its not about whose right or who's wrong
Its not about who's weaker or who's strong
Its not about who's innocent or who's fault
It ain't really bout that kinda thing at all
Its not about who does it or done it or did it to who
Don't matter if the both of you lose
Its really not bout nothing, except for me and you girl
Its about drama and love and Lationships
And when the going gets tough you deal with it
An you don't ever, you never walk away from it
You hold on, you be strong
Its about drama and trust and making it
If your somebody mess up you take it in
Don't let nobody come between you, you just stay with them
You hold on, and be strong
And hold on, yes you do
Its not about the stupid things that we say
We're always saying stupid things anyways
Its not about the secrecy of the lies
Girl everybody's gots a secret to hide
Its not about who was he, who was she who's creeping on whom
Won't batter if the both of us lose
Its really not bout nothing, cept for me and you
Its about drama and love and 'lationships
And when the going gets tough you deal with it
And you don't ever, you never walk away from it
You hold on, you be strong
Its about drama and trust and making it
If your somebody messes up you take it in
Don't let nobody come between you, you just stay with them
You hold on, and be strong
Hold on
Ain't bout your pride
Ain't bout yourself
Its bout the two of you, and no one else
Ain't bout the hurt
Ain't bout the lies
Ain't bout the crazy things thats running through your mind
Its bout the love thats supposed to last and never die
Its about drama and love and 'lationships
And when the going gets tough you deal with it
And you don't ever, you never walk away from it
You hold on, you be strong
Its about drama and trust and making it
If your somebody messes up you take it in
Don't let nobody come between you, you just stay with them
You hold on, and be strong
Hold on
Saturday, May 23, 2009 @Saturday, May 23, 2009
The Fray - You Found Me
I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarete
I said, "Where you been?" He said, "Ask Anything."
Where were you when everything was falling apart?
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of 1st and Amistad
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me
But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna be
No way to know how long she will be next to me
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you?Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me!
The early morning, the city breaks
And I've been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kinda nerve taking all I want!
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me!
Why'd you have to wait to find me, to find me?
@Saturday, May 23, 2009
Put your fears away
I know what I'm doing
Don't worry about the path I'm on
Keep your eyes on the path you're on
I know where I'm headed
I know how things will turn out
Fear not for no harm will befall you
Thursday, May 21, 2009 @Thursday, May 21, 2009
I've been pushed over the edge.
Its time to just let go of everything
Let the pieces fall where they may
I've no control over anything
Do whatever the fuck you please
I can't be bothered anymore.
Monday, May 18, 2009 @Monday, May 18, 2009
I wonder why I'm doing what I'm doing.
Its not right
Nothing good will come if it.
And yet, still I'm doing the same thing
I just feel that if I stop now, you'd get hurt
I need to stop before I fall for you.
I don't want that to happen because the only thing that I ever seem to do is hurt people.
Please find the courage one day to tell me to stay away even if it may hurt me in the process because its good for you.
Saturday, May 16, 2009 @Saturday, May 16, 2009
I don't think that its fair that you choose to ignore the friend who was there for everything.
I'd love to question you, but its just not right.
I guess I'll learn to respect that.
Its really about time for me to close this chapter on me and you.
The friendship that we shared was amazing, I'm sorry you can't see that.
I'm sorry you don't see that I need you as a friend.
And I'm sorry that I pushed you away so long ago.
And I'm sorry that you can't seem to forgive me.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 @Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Find the heart that you once gave away so easily. Keep it close, keept it safe. When the right one comes along, he'll treat it like the gem it is.
I've given my heart away so easily in the past that I don't want to do that anymore. I remember the times when I would never allow myself to fall so quickly and so fast because it just wasn't right. And now I just plunge head first into the dark abyss.
Right now I'm at a crossroads when it comes to a particular someone. Stay on the path that leads to only friendship or take the risk on the other unknown path. My instincts tell me to stay on the path of friendship alone because everytime I move towards the other, something horrible happens. I don't want to hurt anyone else. I don't want to lose anymore friends.
I should only be here to help and not to do anything else. I am only needed as a friend and nothing else. Someone please keep reminding me that before I go off and make an awful mistake.
Sunday, May 10, 2009 @Sunday, May 10, 2009
I shared so much,
Now I don't know where I stand.
A good cry used to be the answer,
But now it solves nothing.
Where are you now,
When I need you the most?
Breathing no longer comes easy,
The way it used to when you where here.
I used to smile when the Sun came up,
and cry when the rain fell.
Now it makes no difference,
The tears don't stop falling.
I thought I was doing the right thing,
By keeping my distance.
It seems to me now,
That I was just plunging the kinfe deeper into my heart.
It seemed so right at that time,
But plans change.
Plans change but feelings don't,
At least I think they don't.
Help me change my feelings,
Help me be the happy person you wanted me to be.
Teach me to be happy,
Without you standing there by my side.
I don't want to put everyone through the same thing again,
I don't want them to see me so dead and torn apart.
Help me not hurt those that I love,
PLEASE.