Friday, July 22, 2005 @Friday, July 22, 2005
Well,I still don't understand why i bother blogging coz no one ever reads my blog....most probably coz theres nothing much.....you only read abt me bitching abt life itself....what else can i say....afterall....the world that we live in is never fair...not everyone arnd us is truthful enough to speak their minds nor tell the truth...life is juz a living hell....at least for me it is....i can't even enjoy music without being compared to someone whom i know is better in it than me....so why do people juz continue rubbing it in?
No one is perfect....its true...but no one should say anything to hurt their friend when their friend has done nothing wrong...why should one cause someone else to hate him/her? its stupid....especially when u know that u can use the person for some other reasons in the near future...why dig up an ugly past when the present is ugly enough...why are some people juz so clueless...no one has the real answers to the questions....we all have to find out own ways of solving our own problems...
You always think that you can turn to one of your friends....especially your best friend in your time of need...but who do you turn to once that best friend is no longer there??(besides GOD that is) you try to turn to someone else but yet no one seems to be there for you...you try to handle things by yourself but yet you keep drowning...you try to pull yourself to the surface of all your problems...but when you try to, you juz get pulled deeper...When your confused and upset...you don't think clear...you don't know what to do...who to turn to...and then you are finally pushed to the edge...and end your own life...you end what was given to you as a gift, a precious gift...all because u felt that no one was there for you...then the people arnd you who care and cherish you....don't understand what went wrong....they don't see their mistakes...they don't see that they were the ones who pushed you the off the edge...very few can see....but do the put it to good use....not all of them.....
You think that the people who "care" for you will always support you in whatever you do....you could never dream of giving up ur aspirations...you go along with life....as per normal...then one day, you find that the people who supposedly care for you want you to leave your dreams and aspirations behind n follow another path...you try to stick with it....but you soon realise that you can't possibly give up your dreams and aspirations....you try to go back to it....but suddenly you realise the amount of walls and barriers that you have to breakdown juz to get to where you wanna go...you try so hard....but with no one there to cheer you on...you soon juz give up.....juz like that all your dreams and aspirations are gone...the enormous amount of effort that you put into it all juz goes to waste...you then live your life with no goal to work towards to...n soon, you juz stop living....
Think about it...ponder over it...someday, you'll know what its like to be living my life...
UNTIL MY NXT BLOG,I GUESS ITS GOOD BYE FOR NOW...ADIOS,CIAO.....