Thursday, March 23, 2006 @Thursday, March 23, 2006
Do I Love You Or Do I Hate You?? A question that has been running through my mind ever since the day I met you. My endless search for love came to a close when our eyes met. But does that mean that I love you?? When you hurt,I hurt....But you never seem to care about how I feel.....Does that mean that you don't care??I am angry with you everytime you don'y speak to me...But does that mean that I hate you?? You know that I care for you. I've told you many a times. I told you that it didn't matter if you spoke to me or not....Because everythin I do is just to show you how much I care for you.You told me that I was great. I took that as a compliment. It sent me rocketing up to the skys ....leaving me floating up in the clouds. But then you stopped caring. I felt the closeness and the caring die away. And I come plumbiting back to earth. With my heart sinking faster than anything else in this world. I reached out to you....To let you know that I was falling....But when I came back to earth....I fell into the arms of no one. No one there to catch me. No one to save me from my fall.I felt my heart breaking into a million pieces as I saw the blood rush to my eyes...Blindinig me....No one was there...No one cared...You were the one person I called out to...I called for your help....You didn't come....I thought that you actually cared....But now I see that I was wrong....And just like that my love for you died....And I mourned its death as I died. I no longer knew if you had a heart to care. The ver first time our eyes met, I knew that you could care.....But as the days went by, the care that I saw in your eyes was replaced by something different....Something that made you seem inhuman. You no longer care for anyone else but yourself. O, how you have decieved me with you charm and your smile...No longer will I see you smile of hear your laugh. My heart aches as I think of this...But I no longer want to torment my weak and fraile heart.
But how do I go on from here?? There is no one by my side to help me through the way....But then a hand reaches out to me....And guides me towards my destination....And soon, I am no longer blinded by blood....I am now surrounded by love....By the love of the people whose death I have mourned...The overwhelming love that surrounded me....Now I know that I never really needed your love....The only kinda love I needed was God's love.It is now that I see that I have never been alone....I have always been surrounded by love....But I was too blind to see....And now my vision has been cleared....