Saturday, March 25, 2006 @Saturday, March 25, 2006
Youth mass today was fun....Jessica sounded great(naturally) hahaz.....she did better than all the solos that i've ever done in the youth ministry....and cantor ministry and CD choir. So congrats congrats!!! Hahaz....Ok....Youth mass is always a joyous occasion....But when its over and you're left thinking, you actaully think more than usual. So now comes the story....Hahaz...
So yet another day has passed....I see your face, I see you standing there...I notice you but you barely notice me. Though it doesn't hurt that much, the pain from other times come back to haunt me. I've thought so many thoughts that nothing seems real anymore....You don't seem real. Its like you've been taken out of a fairy tale and put in this place and time where nothing is ever perfect...But then I see you....And to me, you are perfect because I've accepted your flaws, I've tried working through our differences....Nothing seems to work....We come from two completly different worlds...You've come from a fairy tale world....And I come from this imperfect world....A world where everyone has flaws...Even you....Maybe in your world you were perfect, with absolutely no flaws at all....But in this world, everyone is not spared from having flaws. I sit there and try to slavage whats left of our relationship....But nothing works...I sit there trying to think of what i've done wrong....What have I done to make you feel this way towards me??? I am sorry....I find a way to appologise.....But words fail me....I try to tell you that I love you....But my mouth refuses to move...I try to show you that I care.....And finally....My body lets me....The simple action that says a thousand things....A hug.....That was all I needed from you....And you cared enough to show me that you cared....It is now that I see that you've tried to care....And maybe it was my fault for making things so difficult for you....Or maybe I was being too dense....Maybe all this while you've been trying to show me that you really cared about me....Maybe you didn't know how to show it...But you finally did....Another day came....I was alone....Sitting and thinking about how things could have been....And how I should be thankful that it still might happen because it is better than what could never be at all....I thought about how the more I learned about you, the more I cared for you and the deeper I fell in love with you....And suddenly, I felt a light tap on my shoulder....Slowly I turned.....Only to look into the eyes of an angel....You....You have always been the angel which has always broken my fall even when I felt that you weren't there...The warmth of your love was like the heat from the sun to me...The softness of your touch....It was all becuase you really cared....It is now that I am sent soaring high above the skies....Singing and shouting for joy....For the new found relationship....