Sunday, April 30, 2006 @Sunday, April 30, 2006
The days continue to pass...One moment you're no where near my mind....And out of the blue...Your smile comes back to haunt me. Lets just forget about whatever has happened....Why is that so difficult?? Why is it always so difficult to forget someone you love so much?? Why does it always have to hurt to keep your feelings to yourself??
I want so much to tell you but I don't know how to....But yet I want to know if you feel the same way....Somehow I know that you don't. I don't know how I know....But yet I feel it in the air.I guess thats whats confusing me so much....Wanting to tell you but yet knowing that you might not feel the same way. You don't see the pain coz to you I'm always all smiles and nothing else coz I've tried to hide how I feel behind my smiles...Smiles that mean nothing to you or anyone else...Having smiles or tears for that matter mean nothing to you....I feel more pain....Pain that may just drive me to my grave....But yet I know that dying wouldn't be an option in solving the delima that I'm in....To tell you or not.....
Everytime I see your face....I feel the tears coming....But yet I have to smile through them....Though the pain is too much for me to handle alone, I know that I have to deal with this....By myself.....It is my burden to carry....Not anyone elses.....I know that GOD will always be by my side even as I travel into the darkness......HE is all I'll ever need...I know that its only HIS love that I need....But yet your love means so much to me too....