Friday, April 28, 2006 @Friday, April 28, 2006
You are the dream that haunts my very being.Everytime I close my eyes, I see your face. Everywhere I turn to,all I see is your face.When I look out the window,I see what could have been.I see a future of what could have been ours. Where we could be if we worked hard enough together. The sky was the limit for us but the everything came crumbling down....On the day you went away.
Everything that I thought we stood for turned out to be a lie.It is now that I realise that you were my world. You meant everything to me. You're the air that I breathe.The stars in my ske that guides me through the darkest of nights. All my hopes and dreams I had....Its now that I see that they mean nothing to be because you're not by my side.Your gave me the strength and courage to get through that darkest of days.You were the reason that I didn't give up on life. Without you by my side,my world means nothing to me. I could never imagine what life would be like without you....But now I have to live through this. The loss of the one I so love. But yet, the day still seems to carry on without you here.You come to me in dreams that haunt me and I awake to the reality that you are no longer by my side.
Every waking moment spent without you here with me seems like an endless nightmare. But yet when darkness surrounds me and sleep embraces me, I see your face and your smile.....but yet i know that something is missing.Your heart. It is you heart that I fell in love with and your love that I long for. Without the warmth of your love, seeing you is not worth anything. To feel the warmth of your love is worth more than anything that I could ever own.Your embrace was what kept me warm.And now that I'm no longer in your sweet embrace, I'm left feeling the chill rise within me...
The sun that was once in my life has since faded.I fell into darkness just as we said our goodbyes.How I wish that I hadn't agreed in the first place. It is only now that my heart realises that you are the sun in my life....You are the one which keeps my heart warm. There is no birghtness nor any form of life that surrounds me when you are not by my side. It is all just a dark and deep dreaded nightmare.
I await the day when I shall come out from the darkness and into the glorious light. When the feeling of emptiness is filled and the memory of your face no longer haunts my dreams. When I find someone who will never leave me...