Wednesday, January 17, 2007 @Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Can you please stop getting yourself into trouble? I know it may be a lil bit too much to ask since you looooove getting into trouble. But please, its no use getting your parents mad at you. I SHOULD KNOW! You know how I felt when my dad didn't want to talk to me. Its not fun my dear. Maybe for you it may be fun....But for me it wasn't.
Why do I even bother saying this? Its not like you'll listen right? You'll just say ok, to shut me up and then forget all about it.
I don't know why I'm still holding on when maybe what I really should do, is let go. I no longer know what to do. Its not as clear as it used to be. I don't know if I should stay or go. I don't know what will happen when all things end. I don't know if I'll be alright. I wish I didn't have to choose. I wish that things had stayed the same. But life is not what you want it to be, most of the time, its the opposite. Nothing stays the same in our ever changing world. I can't stand it but I know that I'll have to learn to move on.
My wishes and dreams aren't meant to come true. Happiness is never here to stay. My life a never ending story of darkness and pain. The one true colour that never fades. I plea with fate and destiny to leave a love in my life. I fear the darkness, I fear the cold. All I want is love around. But in this cruel world so dark, hate is all that surrounds.
I pray for you to be safe at night. I pray that soon your mind will clear. I pray that one day you'll find someone who loves you and that you love her too. I hope that happiness will come your way and that love surrounds you day and night.