Tuesday, May 01, 2007 @Tuesday, May 01, 2007
So lifes been...life. Nothing good that last for long. All things bad that never seems to go away. Yes people, the Freda that you all have come to know as the girl with all the sad and heart broken entries is back. But this time I haven't gotten my heart broken. I was just thinking a lil bit too much. And of course...The confusion is yet to end. So here's something I wrote about a week or two ago.
You were once such a great source of insparation in my life. A joy to have around. The things that happen so quickly, are always the first to end. The love I once shared with you, I thought would never end. The one who made my tears go dry, was the one who inspired me the most. I thought the heavens could not see, the lies I told myself. The stars have revealed to the world, the lies I swore by day and night. But now the heavens, have finally spoken of what I once thought was love, has lost all its meaning. I love the thought of loving you, but I can no longere lie to my heart. She knows that what I feel's a lie.For what I feel, is but a fragment of my imagination.
The world my heart has come to believe to be true, has not been shown that it is but a lie. This world has crumbled all around. The dust is settling on the ground. An image of the dreams I've had. All the nightmares have come true. Nothing seems to be what it was. Am I who I believe I am? Or am I , once again, just part of the lie thats been chanted like a spell around my soul?
They say, that ignorance is bliss. But wouldn't I be hurting those I care for, if the love I thought I had turned out to be a lie? Maybe a bliss for one's self, but what about those whom we claim to love?