What you see above is something that a very good friend of mine made for me when I was feeling down earlier this year.

This year is coming to an end and since I'm going to be very busy with the Christmas Concert in my church and the Christmas Pageant, I decided to move up my reflection date to today since I'm quite free now.

The year has flown by in a blink of an eye. I grew a lot this year. Not physically, but emotionally and mentally. Some may say that I've become more full of myself. But I think that I've become more confident as a person and I believe in my abilities and am embracing them. I got my heart broken twice this year. Once early this year by someone so sweet and who still is a friend. And another time just a few months ago by a guy who is a fake. Some will say that I'm too quick to judge. But I believe that I'm just good at assessing a persons character since I know myself very well. All test I take about the kinda person I am will always say that I've got great personal analysis skills. I like to analyze things. Its sometimes my greatest downfall.

This year was the year I take my O levels. And I initailly told myself that I shouldn't be in love or bother finding love. But fate thought otherwise. I had once great thing going that had to come to and end just for something horrible to begin. But it was a learning point for me. I made a bad decision that lead me down that horrible path. Those were the worst 4/5 months of my life. But I pulled through. I'm stronger than I was before. When things ended, I was sad for 5 minutes. And then it became clear to me that God answered my prayer. I prayed for God to end the pain I was in so that I could move on. And 3 days later, my prayer was answered. And He followed up by bringing me closer to my Faith.

I grew so much spiritually this year too. I realised callings to service that I never thought I'd be able to do. YISS in June this year was an eye opener for me. I didn't know I was so firm in my Faith. YISS helped me realise that and reveal it. I think being in doubt about certain things in my life made me hold on even tighter to my Faith. Emmanuel said to me a few days ago I think that if I didn't have faith I would have committed suicide a long time ago. And its true. I don't mean to disregard the help given to me by my friends and family during those dark times, but if it wasn't for my faith, I would have nothing to hold on to. I would have committed suicide. I wouldn't have lived this long if I didn't have hope and faith that God would bring me through it all.

I think that all I've got to say for now. Take care. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year if I don't add another entry before 2008.