Wednesday, July 30, 2008 @Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections - Annon.
Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself. - George Bernard Shaw
After reading that, it got me thinking if I'm truly truly happy. I know that I tell people that I am, but I don't know if I really am. Seems like I've built this huge lie in my life that now it has become my real life, no longer just a lie, but a truth. Is that possible? I seem to remember when I cared so much, but now it seems like I no longer care, about myself, about others. I miss the person I used to be.
But what I've learnt, that its no use wishing and looking back because the world still moves forward, with or without you, it still moves on. You're just one small person in this HUGE world. You're like an ant. A wish is only a dream and will remain a dream if you don't work towards it.
What I want now, is to grow and learn. To work hard not only in school, but in my life and in my faith as well, to grow and get to where I want to be. I want to be successful, I want to be someone people can look up to, I want to set a good example for my younger relatives. I want them to know that they too can do it. Its not impossible. That they are not subjected to the plans that their parents have mapped out, but they should set their path with the guidance of their Faith and they'll get to where they need to be.
I want to have it within me to accept the things that I cannot changes and try to effect change upon the things in which I can change. I want to be able to accept the imperfections in life that cannot be changed and strive to do better in the areas which can be changed.
I haven't been this lost in years. As in like, completely aimless and I feel like I'm not needed, like I've lost my purpose. Why now?