Friday, January 23, 2009 @Friday, January 23, 2009
Run by Leona Lewis/Snow Patrol
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But ever single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you,dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for your lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say.
This song, though simple, says a lot. Its a sad hopeful song. I don't know to believe it or not, but for now, I will. It seems to give me comfort in this time whereby the one person I want, is the one person I know I must leave. For the sake of both of us. I can keep lying to myself and the people who don't know me really well, but I can't hide the fact that I really can't forget you even if I really want to right this instant. You told me once to just forget about you, and I really hope that I can eventually even though I gave you a huge long list of reasons why I can't. And right now, those reasons prove true because you keep running around in my mind! I want it to stop. I know you'll tell me that its all my choice. But in situations like this, you know for yourself, that its not a choice. It just happens. I never wanted something like this to happen....But it did. I told myself I wouldn't let it happen, but it did.