Monday, April 16, 2012 @Monday, April 16, 2012
Most girls think about their wedding day, how the dress will look, the decorations and colour schemes etc etc. But when I try to picture my life, I always picture what happens after I say "I Do." Like I've always said, I love love, but love scares the crap outta me.
When I picture my life after the wedding, I see my husband and I arguing,laughing, smiling and being completely in love despite what the world may throw our way. I see the children out playing, fighting, making a mess and eventually growing up.
I want a marriage where my husband will remain as good a friend to me as he was when we first met. I want the love I have for my husband to grow with each day. I want to be able to accept his flaws and be the one that balances him out. I want to grow with him, not just grow old, but grow up and mature. I want to learn about life with him by my side. I want to face adversities head on knowing that he'll be there right beside me cheering me on. I want him to be able to be vulnerable with me and know that I won't judge him. I want him to be open with me and know what I will accept him no matter what. I want us to fight and argue about the things we disagree on so that we can come to a conclusion that suits the both of us so that we have no bad tension between us. I want my children to be able to see how powerful love is. I want them to grow in a loving environment, assured of their parents love for them and each other.
My best friend and I were talking ages ago about how we expect the guys we marry to come from the same socioeconomic class as we do. But we both later agreed that socioeconomic backgrounds don't matter if who we end up with is hardworking, driven and can love us despite our crazy moments. When my best friend and I envision our future selves, we see ourselves leaving our kids with our husbands as least one week a year so we can go on a holiday together, we see ourselves watching our grandchildren and talking/gossiping with each other about random things and laughing so hard our dentures fall out and we make our grandchildren pick them up and give them back, only our grandchildren, being the rascals they are, run away with them and my best friend and I chase after them with our walking sticks. Haha..
Yes, when I picture my life after the wedding day I know who I want to see in it. I even know who I want the husband to be. Only time will tell who I'll end up with, but I know how I want my life after "I Do." to be.